(Bay Rang Peyya By Amjad Javeed)
Abdul Hnnan Ch
It was Sunday. Aayat took breakfast and sat in the corridor. She was reading newspaper. Dadu wasn`t at home. Suddenly, her phone rang. It was Shakeel. She received the call. Shakeel said, “I was thinking, you might be sleeping.”
She stated, “I can`t sleep in the morning.”
He asked, “Are you busy?”
Her answer was no. He suggested to go and sit in a park. Aayat told him that she wanted to stay at home that day. He informed that he was coming to her home. Aayat put the phone on the table and started to read the newspaper again. She smiled to think about Shakeel. After a moment Shakeel was there. Meanwhile, maid served tea. He said pleasantly, “I was going to ask you for tea.” He took a cup of tea.
“So, you came here to take tea,” she smiled.
“No, I was feeling lonely. I thought we could talk on a cup of tea,” he said frankly.
She couldn`t understand because it was very difficult for her to judge when he was expressing his feelings or trying to treat her a patient. She remained silent. He said again, “We can feel life when we see others.”
“You are right. As we see ourselves in the mirror or clear water, we can analyse ourselves by seeing other people. We try to become like somebody or try not to be like somebody,” Aayat took a sip of tea.
“What will be the standard of like or dislike?” he asked.
“The standard is our thoughts. There is a scale inside us to judge others. We judge others according to that scale. Sometimes it is not reality that we think as reality. The colour of a thing will seem difficult in the moon light than the sunlight,” Aayat said.
“I was trying to say the same. If we are able to change our point of view, we can alter our vision towards life,” he stated.
“Obviously, we shall analyse our thoughts either they are real or not. We accept our thinking by ourselves. Nobody can enforce thoughts. Our weaknesses allow unreal thoughts to enter in our brain. The people who want to enforce their thoughts are real ignorant. The result of thinking reveals that either it is real or not,” Aayat said seriously.
“Just like you. As you have decided not to marry ___________,” he tried to say but Aayat said quickly, “I haven`t taken such decision. The base of my decision is entirely different.”
“What is that?” he asked promptly.
“You can`t understand that at that point of time. You have to pass through that experience to understand it,” she said calmly.
“You are right but if an experiment fails life doesn`t stop,” he stated.
“That`s right that we learn from our experiences but will you make the decisions on that experiment which was a failure?” she inquired.
“I couldn`t understand,” he said.
“You are standing on a junction of life. Did circumstances bring you on that point? Do the circumstances are created by themselves? Do you think, we have no role in changing the circumstances? You looked into life according to your observations, studies and experiences. What is the result? Will you repeat that experiment again?” Aayat looked at his face.
“No, I shall not repeat that but you are negating my knowledge. Is it not like negating wonders of science?” Shakeel asked. She answered calmly, “I`m not negating your knowledge but I have concerns about the competency of your knowledge. Human has not only materialistic life, he has a spiritual life too. Why does your knowledge deny the existence of spiritual life?”
“Ok, leave that topic. I want to share a very important thing with you but the condition is that you will not be angry with me,” he said seriously.
She said pleasantly, “Suppose, if I got angry, I assure you that I shall be normal after some time.”
“Then listen, our elders are thinking about our marriage,” Shakeel said. He was thinking that news will be like blast for but she was calm. She said, “I understood that on the day when Dadu selected you to treat me. If they are thinking like that it isn`t surprising at all.”
Shakeel questioned quickly, “What do you mean? Are you accepting that proposal?”
She replied, “Our elders are thinking like that, it is their thinking. You need a life partner to overcome your problems.”
He asked, “What do you need?”
She said, “I don`t need to marry. I`m of free all wants like marriage. But you will not understand all this at that point of time. You are asking me about marrying you. Can you answer my question? Do you want to marry me? If yes, why do you want to marry me?”
He started to think. He remained silent for some time then said seriously, “Actually, I didn`t even think about it. My parents want me to marry again and apparently, I need to marry too.”
Aayat said patiently, “So, think about it now. You are going to decide about marriage. You have to think about it. You say that you need to marry. Think, what is your need?”
Shakeel asked, “If we have to decide, then ______”
“This is too early to think about it. First, satisfy yourself, then think about my decision,” she explained.
Shakeel became silent. The tea in his cup turned cold. He had nothing to say. He sat quietly for few minutes then stood up and said, “I`m leaving now.”
Aayat said, “Ok.” He walked towards the gate.
Tahir had his off day too. He was walking in the farmhouse with Sarmad. He was wearing green tracksuit while Sarmad was wearing a blue one with yellow strips on it. They came towards lawn. Tahir was expecting Rabia there with fresh juice for them but Sajjid was sitting there. Tahir hugged him while Sarmad shook hand. Tahir asked him why he was sitting out. Sajjid told him that Rabia had requested him to sit in the drawing room but he was feeling comfortable there.
Tahir said, “You are looking tired. I think you have just arrived.”
He stated, “I have just come from Bhawalpur. I don`t want to live there. I have turned off my mobile too.”
Tahir said, “Yes, I came to know yesterday night. Come in and get fresh. We shall talk on breakfast.
The result of the bye election was as Tahir expected. Sikandar Hayat`s candidate couldn`t win the election and the candidate of the business community had won. Why did it happen? Whatever the reasons were behind that failure, Tahir understood that when there would be difference of opinion then the results like that were expected.
Tahir and Sajjid sat in the lawn after breakfast. Sajjid took out a packet of cigarette, took a cigarette out and offered it to Tahir. Tahir refused to smoke and said, “I have quit smoking.”
He asked surprisingly, “When?”
Tahir told, “Many days ago. Sarmad doesn`t like smoking.”
“Good,” he lit a cigarette and said, “Uncle Sikandar didn`t contacted you from the selection of the candidate to the result of election. Your silence affected the election. Uncle and people know that.”
“Amaan came farmhouse and returned back without meeting me. I know Amaan didn`t bring the message of peace. Rabia hadn`t told me anything but I know that there is something on which Rabia is not ready to say anything,” Tahir said.
Sajjid asked, “You didn`t go to Bhawalpur.”
Sajjid was right. He was updating Tahir about election. Tahir said, “I was not concerned about election results but I was hoping against the hopes that there was a door open to go back. Now there is no hope of my return. It is impossible. ”
Sajjid asked, “How is it impossible?”
Tahir answered, “There may be a chance of my reunion with Baba if he might have won. There was less hope but there was some hope. He might have took the credit of win and pressurise me to come back. His stubbornness might have increased but now after defeat, all burden will be on my shoulders. I shall be considered the sole reason of defeat. The petrol of defeat will boast the fire of stubbornness and the heat of anger will be increased. How he will show his anger, I don`t know but the gate of love is shut now. The hatred will prevail.”
“Allah will help you,” Sajjid said like that he had no hope too.
“Yes, He will show us a way,” he said hopefully. The silence prevailed between them. Tahir didn`t know what Sajjid was thinking but he was thinking about himself. His life was limited now. He took Sarmad for a walk every morning, then after preparing for office he dropped Sarmad at his school. He always tried his best that he might pick Sarmad after school but if he was busy, driver picked him. He stayed out with Sarmad in play ground in the evening. They dine together. He watched T.V. for some time and went to his bedroom. That routine only changed when he had to go Islam Abad or few hours of a day when he went to Syed Zeeshan Rasool Bukhari. Sarmad was attached with him and he too loved Sarmad a lot. The reason was Sarmad`s innocence. When he found Tahir as his papa, he devoted his love for him. The love which he had for his father, he gave it all to Tahir. Tahir was experiencing pure and sincere love for the first time in his life. Selfless love had so much power. He was understanding Shah Sab`s concept of colourless love. Tahir was experiencing how the colourless love made his life colourful. He was satisfied with himself and feeling the peace of mind. On the other side there was his father`s stubbornness but he always decided in the favour of Sarmad`s selfless and sincere love.
Sajjid crushed his cigarette in the ash tray and said, “I couldn`t understand one thing. If you can, please explain it to me.”
Tahir asked, “What?”
He said hopelessly, “Why did Aayat created that troublesome situation for you and you too accepted whatever she said?”
“Who told you that Aayat have forced me to marry or I have married under her pressure. The decision of marriage with Rabia was purely my indigenous thinking,” Tahir explained.
“Is it your political statement, you are trying to hide your disgrace or you want to save Aayat? I know that you wanted to marry Aayat. You claimed that you were passionate about her.” Sajjid said angrily. But Tahir answered him politely with a smile on his face, “I am still passionate about her and its intensity is not decreased but have increased.”
Sajjid said sarcastically, “I have serious doubts about your mental health. You love Aayat but married Rabia. What is this intricate affair? Can you please explain me?”
“You can`t understand these matters. Don`t even try to understand them. Let us talk on some other topic,” he smiled.
Sajjid said, “I don`t want to talk. Arrange my stay in your guest room. I shall stay there for two three days. I don`t want to listen public whispering about us.
“Are you sure, you will not talk on this topic,” Tahir tried to hide his smile and asked.
“Yes, I`m sure,” he said angrily and then laughed out loudly.
Shakeel was sitting in his clinic. He was thinking if he needed a life partner who could live with him for the life time. He needed a wife who could put a foundation of a new family or he wanted a woman to pass his time in his solitaire life. His thoughts were going beyond the boundaries but he limited them to Aayat`s philosophy. He understood the difference among a life partner, a wife and a time pass. He understood that the relations couldn`t be kept by plus, minus. Sincere love is required to save the relations. When he thought about Sherlyn, there were many vacuums from the both sides. They had enough wealth to spend their lives. He had money and Sherlyn also earned a handsome amount. He didn`t know how the problems were created. They kept on going away despite having everything. At first, the complaints with each other arose. They were not able to give each other proper time. The passage of time increased rudeness and they started to quarrel. A huge vacuum was created. If they were really in love, the love which is colourless from the inner-self, he might not have been thinking like that. In fact he was alone despite he loved Sherlyn.
Whatever he said to Aayat that day, was he serious and sincere with her? Did he fall in love with Aayat? If he didn`t love Aayat the kind of love she wanted. He was treating her but he had agreed with her thoughts. Suppose, they were married as their elders wish, could he love her according to her ideas or the love he believed? He kept on drawing lines on the paper in front of him while thinking. Many questions were rising and he had no answer.
He tried to justify himself, “I had vision given by Dadu. I tried to understand her in that background.” But when he knew her thoughts, he must have not argued with her. He tried to justify himself once again, “I can prove myself that I am able to love her. But the question arose, you have to find their answers. If you are unable to find the answers, you have no right to disturb her life.” He asked himself, “I have to wait to fall in love with Aayat or anybody else whom I want make my life partner.” His conscience replied, “If you want to make your life pleasant and happy, you have to wait. Otherwise, you already have a bitter experience.”
When Tahir came back from office, it was evening. Sarmad was waiting for him. He said, “Papa, you are late today.”
Tahir sat with him in a sofa and asked, “There was a lot of work in the office. How was your day?”
Sarmad told, “I had a lot of homework to do. I have just done it.”
Tahir asked, “What is your programme now?”
Sarmad said, “I`m tired and shall take some rest.”
“Ok, you can take rest but after dinner,” Tahir said.
Tahir went to the guestroom to see Sajjid. He was on the bed and watching T.V. He had remote control in his hand. He saw Tahir and turned off the T.V. Tahir sat in a sofa and asked, “How was your day?”
He replied with a smiling face, “I slept for the whole day. I have never slept so much.”
Tahir said, “It was needed. You have been working hard for many days.”
Sajjid thought for a while and said, “Politics is a strange game. We make many people powerful to achieve some authority. Actually, we are hungry for power and authority.”
“When we have no vision, we indulge ourselves in that power game. We become the part of that system un-intentionally,” Tahir expressed his view. Sajjid didn`t say anything for a while and then said hesitantly, “I have a plan which can calm down Uncle Sikandar and you can also live as you want.”
“How can it happen?” Tahir asked surprisingly.
“Uncle is angry with you just because of your marriage. He thinks that it is not your status to marry a low cast widow like Rabia. He is not afraid of Rabia he is afraid of what the people will say,” he explained.
“There is one more reason of his anger that I have married without his permission,” said Tahir.
“Obviously, if you want solve the problems with your parents there is only one solution,” Sajjid said. He was looking at Tahir`s face. His face was expressionless.
Tahir asked, “What is that?”
“Aayat un Nisa can do it. If she loves you or she has some sympathy with you, she must listen you,” he said.
Tahir understood a little bit and asked, “What do you want to say?”
“If Aayat marries with you, that problem can be solved,” finally he suggested.
“She could have married me earlier__________,” Tahir said but Sajjid interrupted and said, “I`m not saying to divorce Aayat. She can also live with you as your wife but don`t expose your marriage. Marry Aayat as per uncle`s wish. He wished to see Aayat as your wife. He himself went her home,” Sajjid explained.
“Do you think everything will be fine after that?” he asked with a smile on his face.
“Obviously, Aayat is uncle`s choice while Rabia is yours. When you will do whatever uncle wants, there is a bright chance of some kind of pact,” Sajjid said.
“Tell me, is it your own thinking or ___________,” Tahir didn`t complete his sentence.
Sajjid understood what he wanted to say and stated quickly, “If you think that somebody has sent me to negotiate with you, forget about it. This is purely my own thinking.”
“I don`t even think about leaving my parents but I don`t think so that Baba will accept that solution. He considers Aayat responsible for his defeat in election. He takes every relation by political point of view. Am I wrong?” Tahir explained.
“You are right. Uncle considers Aayat one of the reasons for his defeat. He thinks if she can come from Lahore to create a political set up, she can convince business community to support you then business community candidate can`t win without her support. For your kind information uncle thinks furthermore,” Sajjid answered.
He asked, “What does he think?”
“He thinks that Aayat has taken some kind of revenge. She persuaded you to marry Rabia _____,” Tahir said quickly, “I know, he considers Aayat his enemy. In this situation how he will accept her as his daughter in law? He will try to avoid her.”
“You are right, he will not agree easily. But if we try to explain him the real situation, may be _____,” Sajjid said.
“We can`t talk with Baba without asking Aayat. If she agrees then we can go ahead with your suggestion,” Tahir said.
“She must agree. You accepted her proposal, now it is her turn to sacrifice. Second marriage is allowed in Sharia Laws too” Sajjid argued.
“If it was possible, I could have done it before. Sarmad is a commitment between us and I want to stick on my commitment,” Tahir tried to make him understand.
“Like this Sarmad will have two mothers: Bari Mama and Choti Mama. If it is allowed by our religion and your parents can forgive you, then what is wrong with it?” he insisted.
“I have to ask Aayat first. If she agrees then we can move forward. On the other hand, we have to ask Baba also. If he agrees then I should ask Aayat,” Tahir asked for his advice.
“I`m going back today. I shall try to take his permission. If he signals positively, then you can talk with Aayat. I think if we shall try, we may find a positive way out,” Sajjid said. Tahir nodded his head and said, “Ok, I shall think about it. Let`s go for dinner.”
“I shall take dinner late here in my room,” Sajjid said. Tahir went out of the guestroom. An ocean of thoughts was flowing in his mind. He slept normally but after sometime, he suddenly woke up. Sarmad was sleeping between Rabia and him. They were sound asleep. The atmosphere was quite pleasant because of A.C. in the room. He started to think again. Sajjid`s suggestion was striking his mind again and again. Sarmad and Rabia were important for him but his parents were more important in his life. The way Sajjid had shown was not wrong. If his suggestion might change into reality, the era of love could be revived.
His thoughts were getting wider and wider. Religion permits us to marry again but Rabia`s will was must. He knew that Rabia wouldn`t express any feeling or say anything. She was suppressed woman and was living because of Aayat`s kindness. She wouldn`t say anything even she had some reservations with that decision. May he take undue advantage of her suppression! If there was a way out like that Aayat might have suggested to marry Rabia along with herself. Aayat could have married Rabia with any good person but she chose him. That was Aayat`s great sacrifice. That was emotion to sacrifice her most beloved thing.
His point of view was changing. He would do that for his parents. It means that whatever he had done was wrong in his parents` point of view. He was proving that he was wrong and his parents were right. He took a deep breath. He imagined Aayat. Whatever she had said to him was striking in his mind like echo. He thought that he claimed to be a lover and passionate (aashiq). He was passionate about her. That way was shown by his passion (ishq). Was he tired of the way of passion (ishq)? He couldn`t handle a testing time. She had almost sacrificed her life for him. Was his inner-self not yet turned colourless? Were colours of the world still prevailing inside him? He claimed to be colourless. What happened to his claim? Was his passion (ishq) limited? He became nervous. What was he thinking? That thinking might drag him away of the path of passion (ishq). He had to decide. He remembered what Aayat had said to him, “If there is no sacrifice in love, it is just lust. I have no objection on your claim of being passionate (aashiq) but you have to sacrifice your most beloved thing. If my love is the most precious thing in your life then sacrifice it. If you can sacrifice it, I shall accept that you really love me. Passion (ishq) can`t evaluate without sacrifice.”
He remembered what Shah Sab had said, “Do you want to peek into the future? But you have to withdraw from you passion (ishq).”
He remembered his commitment with Rabia, “I don`t claim or promise anything, the time will decide but I want to see that diary blank which I shall not see ever.”
He decided to forbid Sajjid. He was calm now.
Syed Zeeshan Rasool Shah was busy in conversation in his room. An elderly person, a young man and Tahir were listening him. The young man had asked about the relation of apparent and inner-self. He was answering him, “Usually if somebody has done something bad with someone, the person who is suffered has right to take revenge. If a suppressed wants to take revenge from the oppressor, he is free to do so. But it is not good to return evil with evil. Evil can`t be favoured in any case. As abusive language in return of abusive language can`t promote goodness. Abusive
language will remain an evil. The standard on humanity is to return evil with goodness. This is inner delicacy and its experiment was done by the highest ranked human created ever. You know what was done by the people of Taif but what was our beloved Prophet Muhammed`s (PBUH) reaction. A Makkan woman used to throw garbage on the Holy Prophet (PBUH), but his behaviour was expamplery towards her. The Makkans boycotted Bani Hashim and forced Muhammed (PBUH) and his entire family to stay at Shaib Abi Talib. But after conquering Makkah, he announced an open forgiveness for them. If the inner-self is colourless then the virtues will be colourless.”
The young man questioned, “As apparent`s fate is destruction, will inner-self be destroyed too?”
“Apparent is variable but inner-self is not variable, it is constant. We go through various phases of life but our inner-self remains the same. For example, when we see the mirror, it tells that we are growing old. Our hair turn grey, there are wrinkles on our face but the inner-self remains the same. Every man has a spiritual personality inside him, it can be activated. The person who is able to activate his spiritual personality, he has saved himself from the apparent destruction. This activation is done by the passion (ishq),” Shah Sab explained.
“Can positive and negative guarantee the immortality of a human?” he asked.
“Positive and negative can`t guarantee the immortality of a human. Everything is turning into soil from the beginning of the universe. No matter who much powerful is a person, his fate is a pile of dust. He will be turned in to the dust particles but some things are there which don`t change into dust. Humans are evaluating into the dust but some of his virtues are there which can`t become dust. It means there is something which is above positive and negative which guarantee the immortality of a human. That is passion (ishq). Common people has a conception that the life circle is linked with positivity and negativity but learned scholars know that the life circle is linked with passion (ishq). No living organism can achieve the standard of positivity and negativity without passion (ishq). As we have relations with hundreds of people but the relations are not judged on the base of positivity or negativity. They are judged on inner delicacy.”
He asked, “How can we know that our spiritual personality is activated or not?”
“Obviously, our virtues and actions tells either our spiritual personality is activated or not. There are and were many people who have extraordinary qualities. A lion can`t be tamed but it is tamed. A human who has quality to tame a lion will be able to do this. When a man has the spiritual power, he tries to express it. If a person has stained his inner-self with the colours of greed and lust, his qualities may not favour the humanity. If the inner power is linked with the truth, it achieves immortality. If the inner-self is linked with the lie and falsehood, it can cause destruction only. The person whose inner-self is colourless, he has saved himself from mortality. There are many humans who have died thousands of years ago, but their graves are still lighted with lamps. Their graves are safe from destruction. They are alive in their thoughts, their sayings are alive, and their message is alive. The truth has no death. The person who has linked himself with truth, he can`t die,” Shah Sab said.
“Does the inner-self possess colours? As it is said the black inner-self. What is that black inner-self? Is it linked with evil actions?” he asked again.
“Inner-self is colourless but it is stained by the colour of our lust and evil wishes. The colours emerge from the colourlessness. A colour can emerge from the colourless inner-self but that colour is also actually colourless. If a colour can`t maintain its colourlessness then it is not a true colour. The colourlessness can absorb all the colours but if someone whose personality is stained by the colours of evil actions and lust, he can`t even think about becoming a source of colours,” he said and turned his face towards the elderly person. Shah Sab asked, “Why are you quite?”
He replied, “When you will complete your conversation with these young men then I shall say something.”
“I have talked with them, now it`s your turn,” he said.
Tahir understood that he must not interfere in their dialogue. He stood up and requested to give him permission to leave. The permission was granted and the young man also left the room with him.
Aayat was going to leave office. She turned her chair towards window, the bright sunny day was looking great. She remembered that she had to go to meat Ambreen. There was no important work so she decided to leave. She reached the reception when she received Shakeel`s call. He asked, “Where are you?”
She answered briefly, “In my office.”
He asked quickly, “When will you come?”
She questioned, “What is matter?”
He answered, “I want to talk with you.”
She said, “Ok, I am coming home.”
“No, I want to meet you out in open atmosphere,” he told his opinion.
“You can talk with me on our roof, there is a lot of freshness,” she said.
“Ok, see you on the roof,” he laughed.
When she reached home, it was almost night. Dadu was watching T.V. in the lounge. He muted the T.V. when she entered the lounge. Dadu asked, “You come too late today though you left office early.”
“I have to meet Ambreen to discuss some matters regarding school,” she replied and sat in a sofa near Dadu, “everything is fine?”
“Yes, I have to go somewhere. I thought I shall go there after you will come,” he said.
“You will not take dinner with me?” she asked.
“Ok, I shall go after dinner,” he said and started watching T.V.
Dadu told during dinner that he was going to meet one of his friends. He would try to come early. She informed him about her activities of the day. After dinner Dadu went out. After few minutes, Shakeel`s car stopped in the porch and he entered the lounge. She said, “You are late, Dadu has just went out. You have missed chance to meet him.”
“I have met him. He is sitting in my home with my parents,” he said pleasantly.
“He was telling that he is going to meet his friend,” she said.
“My grandfather is also his friend,” he laughed.
“Oh!” she said.
“I want to talk about ____________,” he said.
She suggested to go to roof.
“No, we can sit in lawn,” he said.
Aayat asked the maid to prepare tea and went to lawn with Shakeel.
“This is a peaceful place,” he said and sat in a chair.
“What do you want to say?” she inquired.
“Either you don`t know or you don`t realise that the understanding between Dadu and my parents is going to reach to a logical end but we are still indecisive,” Shakeel said. He was looking confused.
Aayat asked calmly, “What do you want to decide?”
“Should we marry or not?” he said.
“I have no objection. If Dadu wants me to marry you, it`s fine,” she said.
“But our thoughts are totally different. Our theories about love aren`t same but there is one thing,” he said.
“What is it?” she asked.
“My experiment of love based on my knowledge is a failure. Your theory of love is appealing me. It is quiet logical when a man is a master piece comprised of the soul and matter, how can we deal with anything without contribution of the both. If we try to carry on without involving both matter and soul, the process will me incomplete,” he tried very hard to explain his point of view. Aayat asked, “If you are thinking like that then are you realising that your knowledge is incomplete.”
“The knowledge has no limits. It can`t be completed in our entire life. I shall try to understand and experience your concept about love,” he said with a zeal.
“Where will you do that experiment, at your clinic?” she asked
“I couldn`t understand what are you trying to say?” he said.
“Even if you will be able to understand it, the vacuum created by Sherlyn will remain in your life. Your personality is your laboratory. If you will not go through it how will you understand it?” Aayat explained.
“I have no relation with Sherlyn now,” he said.
“This is the actual matter. You have to become colourless according to my concept of life. You can`t achieve your inner-self without being colourless. Sherlyn has broken her relation with you and you have done the same but you both have colour of hatred in your hearts. One of you should leave that colour. You must forget all the hatred and difference of opinions. You have to become colourless and try to relink with her. If you have a spark of love for your son and his mother, try to find it out then you will understand colourlessness,” Aayat said. He said after a while, “I accept that I was committed to treat you but I didn`t realise that you have a strong concept of love. You are a strong person. You understand love. Sherlyn is my past, I want to go ahead.”
“No, that`s not like that. You are not strong because of your ego. You have to bring these colours out of you then you will know what love is. The colourless love make a man strong,” Aayat said.
“We shall talk about love later. Now, I want to talk about marriage: our marriage,” he insisted.
“So, you want to marry without love. You don`t even know that wife is a life partner not a toy with which you can play to avoid your loneliness. I`m saying again that I have no objection but you have to tell me what love is in your point of view. Do you think love a secondary affair? Or you take is as a pact,” Aayat said.
“You are pushing me towards my past. I`m sorry to say that there was no love in my past. Do you mean that your love is for somebody else? And you ______,” he tried to say but Aayat interrupted him quickly, “My love is for every human being. Love is not an emotion or feeling, it is a behaviour. As the candle spreads its light everywhere, just like that love spreads its blessings to everyone. Love adopts itself according to the relation.”
He asked, “You want me to drag Sherlyn out of my life for good.”
“No, I want that you forget everything and love Sherlyn colourlessly and whole heartedly. I accept that it will be difficult for you but it is not impossible,” Aayat said gently.
He asked, “What will happen if I accept her again?”
“That will be great. I shall be happy that you have passed through the experiment of colourless love,” she stated.
“If I were unsuccessful,” Shakeel said.
“I shall accept whatever you say is right,” Aayat said definitely.
He smiled and said, “You are taking a big risk to trust my intention.”
She said, “I think you are not feeling good in open atmosphere. You will take tea here or we go to lounge.”
“I should leave now,” he said.
“Let`s go in and take tea then you can go,” she insisted.
to be continue………